Recently, I discovered that a boy that I liked did not like me in the same way- I mean he said he was attracted to me and liked me but his actions never showed it. He never invited me to hang out with him and his friends and rarely made effort to contact me. I am not a clingy girl- I understand that guys need their guy time and that sometimes you just do not feel like talking on the phone but there is a line where if you like someone you need to make SOME effort.
So, here I am again- square one. No boys- no stories. At one point in time it would have bothered me but a sixteen year old at my church gave me some great insight- a girl wise beyond her years. This is what she said, "Don't worry about finding a guy or not having a guy. Everyone's timing is different. Right now, you need to focus on becoming the best girlfriend/wife/mother profile that you can be. Once you focus on changing yourself and stop looking for others to do it for you- then things start coming together. But there is no set time- so get over it, stop feeling sorry for yourself and focus on the now and becoming the best that you can be for your future family!"
It was great advice and made me feel a little selfish. Here I was not focusing on making the environment a better place- instead I was focusing on what I THOUGHT I needed at this point in time. Obviously, I have some things that I need to work out within myself, explore the world, and provide love for everyone around me. I will not lose hope in finding love- because love is its own law and LOVE always lays it down when its time. I'm not worried.
Don't get bawled up in searching for Mr. Right- Don't stay in a relationship just because you feel like you need one or that you might be lonely- Let time and let him come to you. I know that it is not easy but life is never on our terms and the more we try to force it to, the less it conforms to our will... so let it ride and wait for the idiot to finally stop and ask for directions!
